We talked for 20 minutes. I cried, she said don't cry and asked about the kids and things. I went outside for a coffee and the phone rang. The doctor said to hurry back. She closed her eyes and lost consciousness. They didn't let me see her and they rushed her back to the hospital that turned her away.
Jennifer never woke up, she had brain death and passed away January 14 2013. Jennifer and the kids were sick on January 3rd, the day after my sons 4th birthday.
I'm still in shock and feel totally let down. Jennifer didn't even get to see our baby walk as she was still breastfeeding. I'm totally devastated. She left us and all she needed was IV antibiotics. I'm a Mom and Dad to Nicholas who's four and Noah who's one and a half. I cry every night and ask why, why, why.
I don't know what to do or who to ask for help. I'm trying to take it day by day but I'm struggling with a broken heart. I feel so lost and alone but have to be strong for the boys. I've been doing this alone for eight months and it's taking its toll on me. Please is anybody there to help us, even a prayer. I'm feeling so empty without Jennifer and our poor boys have to grow up without their Mom. She was an amazing Mother, loving Wife, was always smiling and would help anyone.
I don't know what the future holds, I feel stuck in a dark desert with my boys. This shouldn't of happened and why us, why. Thanks for reading our story.
Christopher Cielecki
September 2013