I got really worried all of a sudden and decided to call my friend Inga to ask her if she could drive us to the A&E. We arrived at the A &E at 9pm and Loken started vomiting and emptying his bowels at the same time. He wasn't well at all and the vomiting became more and more aggressive. He hardly responded to me and was then seen by the paediatrician, who gave him antibiotics through a drip. He spotted a couple of spots, one on his neck and one on his arm.
We were then admitted to Maidstone Hospital, where Loken was watched over night. He wouldn't sleep and always said "alle alle", which is the German word for finish (he was in pain and wanted me to help him). His blood pressure kept going up and down and throughout the night he developed a severe rash all over his body.
I called my sister-in-law Della at 4am to come and support me as I couldn't cope anymore (I was also seven weeks pregnant at the time). My husband had flown to his job in Venezuela the day before and I was advised to call him to come back as our son was not well.
It all happened so fast and they said something about meningococcal septicaemia and meningitis. I didn't even know what meningococcal was. They called the Southern Thames Retrieval Team to collect Loken and take him to the London Evelina PICU. Loken was put into a coma as his organs were not able to support himself anymore. Della and I received antibiotics and we were able to drive in the ambulance to the hospital. I kept asking the doctors and nurses if he would survive and all they kept saying was that Loken was very ill. Nobody ever gave me false hopes.
The next few days were the most difficult days in our lives. Brendon (my husband and Loken's dad) arrived two days later and he was devastated to see Loken in the PICU. He had wires everywhere and was completely swollen from all the fluid they had to give him. He stayed in a coma for six days and was then slowly woken up. We thought we crossed a hurdle and that he would survive, but again we were told that anything could happen in the next few days.